Faith not Force

JULY 16, 2025

I most recently had my knee replaced and have grappled with the “slower than I’m used to” process of healing.  For 2-3 weeks I felt completely vulnerable and if I’m honest, helpless.  This level of recovery is something I haven’t experienced before.  Previous to this, anything that required great effort to achieve I would push hard and lend a bit of a forceful attitude to get it done.  I do think that there is time and a place for some gentle pushing but not force.  I have come to realize over the last few years that while force may get some things done quickly, it creates a negative and harsh environment. 

I was working so hard at rehabilitating my knee but felt I was under achieving and feeling frustrated.  One day I was so upset I was speaking harshly to my knee.  Guess what?  It did not help one bit.   It just brought out an old part of me that I hadn’t seen in a long time.  It did not feel aligned with who I am. As I was tearfully journaling on my difficult days I decided to absolutely surrender (not give up) to what was happening and the following words wrote themselves.

My determination is fueled by faith not force.

I felt a sense of relief.  I had taken the pressure off the unrealistic expectations of myself and THEN turned to a strong belief I have in myself. I have faith that with the right physio, exercising to the best of my ability, the right eating and good sleep that all will work out.  I have always had an optimistic outlook (it actually drives some people nuts) and I have a belief that a higher power controls the ultimate outcome.  

I am talking about “a knowing”.  For religious people it is their God.  For spiritual people it is the universe, angels and spirit guides. For others it may be hope and optimism.  I do know without tapping into something, I would feel helpless, discouraged and alone.  

I am not advocating for any one in particular.  I’m advocating to have faith in whatever way it is to help yourself.  I wish that for you.  When life’s challenges seem heavy, have faith.  You can do it. 

Sometimes taking a step down from that expectation pedestal to breathe and recalibrate is just what we need to do.  Begin from a different frame of reference.  One that feels good to you and provides the space to unfold.

South Sudanese Proverb:  “Zetna Fi Betna”  “The Oil is Within Us”   

Trust in yourself and have faith.  The Oil is Within You ✨

With much kindness,

Michelle Nesbitt